honestly, because of the non-stop revolution,
trend tends to change,
people would rather post their status at fb or twitter or tumblr, even at instagram.
well, prolly because i have sentimental emotion towards blogging.
thus, here am i.
recently, I've been thinking much about most of the stuff that i've been doing.
Am i going to go back time? and make some changes?
'i know its impossible, but people can dream and imagine right?'
I took the time to look through facebook today differently.
Usually, my routine was refresh the home page and also click to the profile page, lastly, click on the notification and that's about it.
I took the time to browse through my friend's page and status today.
I realise that there are so much changes. This changes makes me feel like i should grow.
Prolly because i think i didn't grow as much as them?
I went to Genting last weekend for some weekend getaway,
since I'm above legal age, my friends and I decided to take a troll down to casino.
'to those that knows me, I think u guys would understand i want to write later'
YEAH! i got stopped by the security guard. FOR MANY TIMES.
there is even one, that didn't believe that my IC is genuine..
'do i really look that young?' is it really impossible to think that such a face is above legal age?
Sometimes, i really want people to treat me as an adult, but sometimes i prefer not to.
Well, its not that i'm complaining how young i look like,
Its just, when u see so much changes and time do to a person, u tend to reflect it on yourself, right?
I don't know, but i certainly hope that someone would take the time to really understand and know you for who you are instead of just looking at what you can offer.
I was bored waiting for people to skype me
Finished my anime already
Nothing much in my life.
Leading somewhat a busy, at the same time routine life.
As busy as i said i am, i think commitment plays an important role.
Gotten my official 1st month of pay.
Honestly, how should i feel? or I should say, what should I be feeling?
I don't know to be exact.
I still remember the times during high school and university,
we compare and wish each other the best in their future,
we critic like some experts on other's decision on whether in acceptance towards certain treatment during their working experience.
we promise to ourselves that we would not go "that" way as it is not fair in terms of 'qualification'
Now naive was that.
I would have to say that I wasn't satisfied at all with the amount paid to me.
But what can I do more?
Is this the correct method to go through with my life.
Will this decision really brings me to where I want to be in future.
People kept telling me that I'm putting too much expectation in myself
and that i should keep myself updated in the reality life.
what is reality?
am I not living in a reality life already.
Does this mean that I'm rushing over?
but I cant resist comparing myself with others peers of mine.
I would have to say, I do compare myself with others a lot and that pressured me.
Sometimes I even feel that I shouldn't be treated this way, in the end its the material that counts right?
Is that a thought of naive? I wouldn't know.
all i know now is that I really wish that 2013 would be far better than 2012.
As much as I feel really humiliated, I can't do anything rather than endure. Is this the correct way?
I wouldn't know, i guess the best thing that i can do is to put on the similar face that i put on everyday.
honestly, it is real.
i have honestly lost the TIME to blog about how i felt to the world.
i have failed to communicate with the world.
i have lost the passion of it.
but, since i have the time to do so now,
i would like to water my blog with some water, to prevent it to die.
these past month was working month for me.
started myself to work for Nestle, which means travelling to Mutiara Damansara everyday from Cheras.
yeah, i am amazed myself.
owh well, so far so good for me. since i think its a good learning experience.
ever since i started working, i realised that a day wasnt that long.
since i start working at 8.15a.m, end around 6 something to 7p.m.
i thought to myself. OMGOSH! i have lost my morning till evening.. once i'm home its ready for 8.30p.m tv drama. HAHAHAHA
the sudden realization that this cycle of work is going to continue...
I REALLY WANNA STUDY AGAIN!!!~ T________________T
i want to enjoy the moment when i can fully use my student privilege. watching movie during weekdays, when no one will 'fight for tickets'
eating food using student price,
have everything in student price!
most importantly, when i can sleep my weekdays till 10a.m and have no worries that I have work early in the morning.
i miss the time when i can have NO CLASS days on weekdays!!!!
i love study time! so, to those that are studying, cherish the moment!!!!~ i love you!
this is given by my boss, all the way from HongKong.
its a type of sweet btw.
i felt that i resemble the red elephant in the middle top
as confused as i am, i felt that i need some time off to myself