Monday, September 19, 2016

This is not just a post

Sometimes I don't really understand.
What am I to you?
In your list, where do i stand?

Hidden? do I really need to know?

Friday, August 05, 2016

Quarter life crisis

I've not posted anything for quite some time.
Didn't find the need to write anything special since with all the up & coming Facebook, Instagram and Snapchat convenience.

Life's been good.

Nothing much drastic happened other than me cutting my hair and all. (yeah, i chopped it)

Broke up, fallen to the 'it's complicated' relationship, got out and the cycle is continuing? 
(i'm not really sure myself)

I've known a few good friends, buddies and brothers!

Met some bastards along the way, and still am meeting some.

Should i still say that Life's still good? Yea, i shall. It's part of the learning process.
We gain experience by learning some good and bad.

Took the chance to draft this post because I need somewhere to vent my emotions.
So when i read back in the future, I can laugh at it myself.

In June, my favourite music was Kat Dahlia's I think I'm in Love,

This month's favourite music was Martin Garrix and Bebe Raxha's In the Name of Love.

I hate myself being played and chess-ed around. After countless times i tell myself NOT TO FALL.

Ask me if i still LOVE?
I do.

Sometimes I thought to myself, why did i make decisions like that, why i didn't try to give them the second chance to actually prove it to me.

Did i not be patient enough to wait? But again, what am I supposed to be patient about?
Am i too strong-headed? did i slowly forcing my expectations? 

Honestly, I cant remember.

Did i really move on? I'm not sure. All i know is I'm lost, VERY LOST when i lost him.
Did i regret letting him go?
No. I didn't. 

All i know, I didn't let him go cause I didn't love him, but I felt my love for him gradually changed which at the same time I don't see myself having a future with him.

I miss having him being there 24/7 whenever I'm unhappy.
I miss him putting me in his utmost priority
I miss him letting me vent all my emotions good nor bad at him, even if he didn't do anything wrong
I miss him trying to please me all the time.
I know he loves me dearly, treats me like a princess. 
I know i won't be able to get anyone that love me as much as he did.

That aside, its the past already. I can't change what is past.

Moving on. 
Suck it up Sslynn!

Friday, July 05, 2013

Childish enough to remain in primary school.

I feel like putting all my feelings and relate it with songs that i've heard recently.
It's been a while since I've experience this feeling.
The sudden outburst..

Something happened, I didn't know that it would happen in my world now.

I've started to understand how one person can change, due to environment and surrounding.

I feel like I've made the right choice to keep the distance.
Despite my straight forward characteristic, I feel good that I've been in the shadow and out from the circle.
Cheers to myself.

Anyway, to the person, I wish you all the luck in the world.
I wish you the best life ahead of you.
I wish you health
I wish u wealth.
Although we cant be 'true' friends..

I still wish u the best.
I will remain my distance with you.
I shall not step on any of your ways.
I shall keep smiling to you.
I believe I can keep talking to you.


Generation Y. i truly believe that 1 day we will be powerful enough to change the world and globally.

btw, I'm still healthy (probably getting more and more healthy) Increasing weight like mad.
see my round face... T__T

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

time flies

it's the month of March,13

honestly, because of the non-stop revolution,
trend tends to change,
people would rather post their status at fb or twitter or tumblr, even at instagram.
well, prolly because i have sentimental emotion towards blogging.
thus, here am i.

recently, I've been thinking much about most of the stuff that i've been doing.
Am i going to go back time? and make some changes?
'i know its impossible, but people can dream and imagine right?'

I took the time to look through facebook today differently.
Usually, my routine was refresh the home page and also click to the profile page, lastly, click on the notification and that's about it.

I took the time to browse through my friend's page and status today.
I realise that there are so much changes. This changes makes me feel like i should grow.

Prolly because i think i didn't grow as much as them?

I went to Genting last weekend for some weekend getaway,
since I'm above legal age, my friends and I decided to take a troll down to casino.
'to those that knows me, I think u guys would understand i want to write later'

YEAH! i got stopped by the security guard. FOR MANY TIMES.
there is even one, that didn't believe that my IC is genuine..
'do i really look that young?' is it really impossible to think that such a face is above legal age?

Sometimes, i really want people to treat me as an adult, but sometimes i prefer not to.

Well, its not that  i'm complaining how young i look like,
Its just, when u see so much changes and time do to a person, u tend to reflect it on yourself, right?

I don't know, but i certainly hope that someone would take the time to really understand and know you for who you are instead of just looking at what you can offer.

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

the year of 2013.. shall start with a good beginning

I suddenly have the urge to blog. its already 2013.. *probably due to something i heard during my lunch*

yeah, from my previous post, it can be seen clearly that I have lost interest in blogging..
cause i was simply... LAZY.

yeah, I admit to it.

Anyway, its already the 30th of January 2013, speaking of that, *tomorrow is Baskin Robbin's day!* **gonna head over an buy my favourite Mint Chocolate Chips** yummy =P

Without notice, have been working for about wat... *count my fingers*8 month...
So far so good.. still living and alive. (*though i would wish for the world to end during 21.12.2012.*)

Anyway, gained 2kg's.. *fml*

Owh well, I have nothing much to talk about my boring life as a young adult (yah I AM STILL in that category) **i hope...*

I miss my favourite people in the world, Ms Charmaine and Ms Mei Mei and also

our most reliable friend Mr TK.

CAN YOU GUYS STOP GOING ON TRIP and come TEMAN ME??!?!?!?!?! *i love u*

before i sign off..
(today's moon is extra HUGE O.o)

my nestle cute and pretty girls 
(should be pretty la, i think i'm the retard)

my battlebabes!
(pretty young and cheecky and funny)

my uni bunch!!!!~
*Miss u all like crazy*
cause i cant find all of u in 1 picture 

my BELOVED bunch
*and of course TK*

SUMS!!!~ I LOVE U ALL!!!~ <3 p="">

Sunday, October 28, 2012

What's yes and what's no

I was bored waiting for people to skype me
Finished my anime already

Nothing much in my life.
Leading somewhat a busy, at the same time routine life.
As busy as i said i am, i think commitment plays an important role.

Gotten my official 1st month of pay.
Honestly, how should i feel? or I should say, what should I be feeling?
I don't know to be exact.

I still remember the times during high school and university,
we compare and wish each other the best in their future,
we critic like some experts on other's decision on whether in acceptance towards certain treatment during their working experience.
we promise to ourselves that we would not go "that" way as it is not fair in terms of 'qualification'

Now naive was that.

I would have to say that I wasn't satisfied at all with the amount paid to me.
But what can I do more?
Is this the correct method to go through with my life.
Will this decision really brings me to where I want to be in future.

People kept telling me that I'm putting too much expectation in myself
and that i should keep myself updated in the reality life.
what is reality?
am I not living in a reality life already.

Does this mean that I'm rushing over?
but I cant resist comparing myself with others peers of mine.

I would have to say, I do compare myself with others a lot and that pressured me.

Sometimes I even feel that I shouldn't be treated this way, in the end its the material that counts right?
Is that a thought of naive? I wouldn't know.
all i know now is that I really wish that 2013 would be far better than 2012.

As much as I feel really humiliated, I can't do anything rather than endure. Is this the correct way?
I wouldn't know, i guess the best thing that i can do is to put on the similar face that i put on everyday.

signing off.

Sunday, June 03, 2012

April month to Thailand invasion!

After the hectic Independent Project B,
After the stress of my final examination in April...(yeah april)
the Thailand trip. Krabi and Phuket for 5 days 4 nights is the BEST place to be.

its somehow a graduation trip with Wei Jia and Jenny.

and YES! i totally have forgotten to blog about it.
mainly cause I wasn't the camera-girl.. hehehehehehe

anyway, here is the photos of our 3 days 2night in Phuket. and another 3 days 2 nights in Krabi.

and so, i am just posting this up. yeah i know, i'm slow..

all picture credits to WeiJia and Jenny.
and pictures are not in chronology order cause i'm too lazy to organise it.
something is going wrong with my blogger uploads. its hanging.. T______T

this is in Phuket, when we are trying to capture the sunset.

i love you weijia.
lets set down to the amazing horizon.

this was then we are in Krabi beach.
trying to be funny
(Jenny, is in my palm)

This was when we are in Krabi, during our island visit.
A kind aunty gave us the whole loaf of bread to feed the fishes
There u see we are so excited to feed the fish (until they start biting your hands, like piranhas)

I love this picture, the fishes are surrounding me!!!

I wrote this! (JY, WJ and Jenny)

I'm just being weird.
On a cruise ship on the way to Phuket.

Our amazing snapshot from Phuket beach!
Super love this picture!

Compare with the previous picture,
its still bright.
within 30minutes, the sky was dark.

Do i need to mention?


WOW! can see moon ady!!!~ AMAZING
got Neil Armstrong footstep on IT!

My idea to making ourselves looking thinner and taller.
IT WORKS ok!!!~

PARTY NIGHT DRESS UP for Phuket Night Life.
the night is still young babeh!

the clear sea water of Krabi island.

another sunset shot from Krabi.
I personally like this sunset picture.

Looking at the huge clouds above.
I wish it doesnt rain.
But i'm certainly loving the breeze!!~

Acting: like a pro!

waiwai: wah! titanic pose o, quickly find bf to hug u from the back!
reply to wai wai: I WISH!!!!~ HAHAHAHAHA

btw the picture is like damn babi!
I look like i'm doing a symbol. can u decipher it?


checking out our amazing photos!

Krabi beach is GOOD!

words are not needed. its poda island!

emo shot

quote jenny and weijia: Korean Pop Star on the RUN!

food! where are u food?

sun set




in total?



who is up for Hong Kong or Japan???

the past few months were heck!

someone told me this,

jooying, your blog is dead.

honestly, it is real.
i have honestly lost the TIME to blog about how i felt to the world.
i have failed to communicate with the world.
i have lost the passion of it.

but, since i have the time to do so now,
i would like to water my blog with some water, to prevent it to die.

these past month was working month for me.
started myself to work for Nestle, which means travelling to Mutiara Damansara everyday from Cheras.
yeah, i am amazed myself.
owh well, so far so good for me. since i think its a good learning experience.

ever since i started working, i realised that a day wasnt that long.
since i start working at 8.15a.m, end around 6 something to 7p.m.
i thought to myself. OMGOSH! i have lost my morning till evening.. once i'm home its ready for 8.30p.m tv drama. HAHAHAHA

the sudden realization that this cycle of work is going to continue...
I REALLY WANNA STUDY AGAIN!!!~ T________________T

i want to enjoy the moment when i can fully use my student privilege. watching movie during weekdays, when no one will 'fight for tickets'

eating food using student price,

have everything in student price!

most importantly, when i can sleep my weekdays till 10a.m and have no worries that I have work early in the morning.

i miss the time when i can have NO CLASS days on weekdays!!!!

i love study time! so, to those that are studying, cherish the moment!!!!~ i love you!

this is given by my boss, all the way from HongKong. 
its a type of sweet btw.
i felt that i resemble the red elephant in the middle top
as confused as i am, i felt that i need some time off to myself
to revert.
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